Day 322 & 323: Mon / Tues July 1st - The ache in my years

Day 322 & 323 - The ache in my years.

Where does the time go? The past 323 days have sailed by.  Today my oldest turns 13.
Where does the time go?  Holding onto time is like grasping sand being poured from a bucket, it seeps through my fingers, feeling soft and cool, my mind ever repeating -  Where does the time go?

Day 306, 307, 308 and 309 - Time

Day 306, 307, 308 and 309 - Time

I may have written about time before, but it's something I think about a lot when I run.
Not the kind of time in regards to running or a specific goal therein, but time, as in the passing of time as we live life. Time is something I feel I don't  have very much of. So many things I want to accomplish and do, places to see, things to teach my daughters, or just time to have fun.
Time continues to march onward at a fast pace, consumed with work, worry, stress and "to-do's".
For brief moments, time will seem not to matter and I'm in the moment, happy.
Sadly, this is often the exception instead of the rule.
I want to live life without regrets or 'shoulds', but often get caught up in them, especially the 'shouding' all over myself, that's my specialty. I need to stop that. *sigh*

Day 198: Wed Feb 26th -

Day One Hundred Ninety-eight -  Blink

Blink and it is morning. Get up, balance (sometimes wrestle) the day.
Blink again and it's evening, the sun goes down. Time for bed.

I have a love hate relationship with time. Trying to stay focused on the present moment can be challenging for my brain. Each day I wake up with good intentions to 'enjoy the little things'.
Some days are good, but others blow away in a blur of hustle, bustle, fun and sometimes chaos. Each of which I am fortunate to experience, but ......I blink and I am writing another R on my calendar at home. R=Running no time attached to it, however time is there staring back at me.  SLOW DOWN DAMNIT!

After my first daughter was born, I commented how fast she was growing during that first year. 
My Grandmother said to me  "Just wait Celeste... time speeds up as you get older and before you know it, you blink, and your my age..."  I already feel like I'm living life in warp speed trying to keep up. 

Perhaps if I jam toothpicks into my eyelids...  I won't be able to Blink.